Tuesday, February 08, 2005
maybe all cos of the hot weather... everybody suddenly become seems unlike the person he or she supposed to be... i feel sorry alws make others be angry @me... but i really dunno wad has happenned and wad will go on happenning... i hope i'm a blind gal cos dun wan to meet the ppl i dun want to meet... i'm not a normal gal bah... the ppl i dun wan to meet r alws the ppl i love not the ppl i hate... i dislike to hate ppl, i see everybody in a innoscent way...yep i hope everybody loves me and wanna to be my friend...
tt guy totally changed to another person... this makes me dun wan to ove him anymore... i should hate him cos i'v payed so much attention onto him and have wasted so much time and love on him... why ah? why i hav to be one of his secret admires? yep he's quite attractive... many gals feel he's ap and handsome and humourous and boyish... i dun think so bah? yep i dun think so... i juz feel he's childish and innoscent and cute and lovely and... i feel he's juz the one i want... the only one... i always dreamed to marry him... i noe iz quite shameful to say things in this ways but i really cannot bear his changing... i can see tt he's trying to be a manly guy... but tt's not wad he may be... y not just saty in his own personality? y have to change to be a HIM with the personality of another person? i noe he's trying to use the walking styl of his buddy... i really dunno y he wish to act as another person? yep, his buddy's very handsome. tts the sentence i heard from many many gals, they say his buddy's the most handsome guy in this sku... i dun wan to make and comments abt this... but all i'm thinking now is being the person with ur own personality is much much more attractive dan acting as another person no matter how nice tt person is... that's totally useless...
the reason y i can write this things in thid blog entry is horrible for me... tt all because i decided to drop him ald... maybe i shoul use much time on my subjuects... have to do well in my o-level cos going my dream jc is the only wish i made @ e beginning of this year... yep, 2005... new year new start...have to walking toward my dreams... i have to achieve my dreams and the first step i should do is just stop thinking abt pilos and piloship... but actually, it's a horror for me to drop all these things...drop my comics my QQ my buddy outings and my loves... it's not that simple for me... but i have to force myself do tt, right? have to be good for 2005 lah!!~ hohoho jiayou yah!!~ =D
i dunno and oso dun wan to noe wad kinda person i will be without *#@@$#%&^*... all i feel now is tt my heart feels so empty...
shiny blogged on 11:29 PM
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